Yes. I know these from the story!
"I wasn't there" isn't an obstacle to feeling/sensing. And you know that.
So, you add "I have no soul".
So, no soul, no feeling.
Hmm... Interesting.
Of course, you have life in your body through your connection to Anthi, who has your soul and her soul.
Living passes through the soul again.
But you, M, still say you don't want a soul.
I wonder how would you be able to write the "I don't want a soul" without a soul.

:-p