This is how it happens. We are made this way; to construct through deconstruction, to rise up through kneeling, to know through being unaware.
That monologue of yours to Adam is a monologue of a really strong person.
And yes, Nina chose her battle, her way, according to her present range of perception about herself and the world. It's neither bad nor good. It just is what it is.
That's a great story, Natasha. Really insightful and moving.